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Sippin' on blue earl grey tea at 3am because a sweet friend of mine was nice enough to give me a little container (pic taken after I've used some) of it when I was at their place sniffing the sweet-flowery scented tea leaves like a druggie (haha not to worry I'm clean) about a month and a half ago? And since I've been pushing off to try it, I should do it before I go.

These 3-4 months made me realize I've got some of the sweetest friends, even in the shortest amount of time. And today especially, made me think... 

I took some time to meet a couple of friends whom I've met from various places - from school, college and uni. True enough, as you grow older, you tend to let bygones be bygones. These are the people who were there in the best and the worst of your times. Push whatever conflicts aside, you'll find yourself being so vulnerable with sharing your stories with them. No matter how long time has distance you apart, the spark to have a conversation with them when you meet is lighted in an instant. Though the process of knowing them takes patience, at least you know that it's moulding the bond between both parties.

Forgiveness, acceptance and vulnerability are some things I've learnt in this duration of time. How to truly overcome and (partly) move on from the negativity of life. And to let others in, because being in my comfort zone for long won't do me any form of favours.

I like being here - I'm exploring the city so much as opposed to KL. There's much more to discover, to find myself and where I belong. I'm beginning to feel at the prime of my time (okay, maybe not too much), growing up and finding that peace I long for. This is exactly how I wanna live - to show that I'm capable of things, to achieve things I've always wanted to, to have stories and memories to tell, ones that I hold dear.

It may be an ugly world at times, but nothing like unexpected long hugs from the people you care about and won't be seeing for a while, laughing at random stupid remarks at a restaurant until the people at the next table looks in your direction and deep conversations learning about another's life can't solve.

I've not been homesick ever since I came here; that's a good thing, no? I think that's the sign that I'm surrounded with loving people who I'll cherish.

Till then.

PS: I MISS WRITING STUFFIES LIKE THIS. Coupled with a limited amount of vocabulary that can possibly be expanded if I get my arse back to reading, and some miss and hits of grammar to touch up on, I'll document these little stories so I can read them the next time I feel nostalgic.

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@ Chuckle Park.

I wonder if we'll meet again

Talking about life since then

Talk about why did it end

...and into the next.

Maybe I'd wanna try something new like start having coffee in this city. In a quaint corner of the city on a lovely quiet afternoon. It can drizzle a little, so my ears will perk up to listen to the pitter-pattering of the rain. I'd take long walks in parks, do silly things, run around while I'm still able to, live the life I will soon grow to miss...

Build a sandcastle and watch the sunset... While being wrapped in the arms of a beloved. Have deep conversations, cry when I'm broken and laugh the night away to contain whatever sorrow.

I want to take photographs of pretty places, capture everything I can to be kept as memories. I want to be in frames with people who mean a lot to me. People who knows me inside out. People who have grown to love and accept the person I am today.

I'll look back at these pictures with a smile and maybe tear a little if I want. Because these are the things and people I can't have to myself all my life. They would want to explore the world and be free as well. But they have walked into my life, left footprints there, for a reason. An impact. Or merely just a distant memory to recall.

So that's what I'm gonna do.

Do the things I have always wanted to do, say things that I have utter, fall hopelessly in love and hopefully it'll turn out to be a love story to my kids. =)



Day #62 here.

Mesmerized

A year ago, I was deeply contemplating... My mind stirred around events that happened the day before. I was captivated.

I'm a firm believer that two ends will eventually meet. Just the matter of how and when.


Serenades never felt sweeter than this.

Searching for reasons to find you over and over again

I taught you not to be selfish.

I taught you to be more mature.

I taught you to take chances and not regret them.

I taught you how it is - may it be annoying, yet amazing to be with someone.

You taught me to look beyond imperfections.